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Email #1 - response to the last email I sent him before I wrote the kiss off letter. This was the email I sent the night before, before my “don’t contact” me email:
So how many times should I apologize? 5 times, 50 times, a 100 times?? What’s gonna be the trick here, Pathetic Guy? I already told you I was sorry and I explained why - and I meant every word. What do you want me to say??
This was his response to the email above:
From: Pathetic Guy
Date: Tue, Jul 26, 2011 at 8:59 AM
Well first of all stop acting like this-I don’t find it too nice and let’s end the snipping sarcasm. You know what you did was wrong.
From the Peanut Gallery: What on earth did I do to this guy?? He acts like I took his virginity and never called the next day.
Email # 2, 13 minutes later – This was after reading my “Don’t contact me anymore email”
From: Pathetic Guy
Date: Tue, Jul 26, 2011 at 9:12 AM
My intent was not to hurt you or bring you down. It was to push you away as I can tend to put up a wall around me at times when I get upset and frustrated. It was to express my frustrations which were exacerbated by Sunday’s speedating. Believe it or not, you saying you don’t want me to contact you anymore hurts me more than anything else. I don’t know what to say, but as weird as it sounds, I do want to be friends and yes it was petty of me to bring up the amount of the bill. I’m just frustrated the way dating has been going for me. I do not want you feeling bad or guilty, it’s I’m taking dating very personally and am really hurt by what’s been going on lately. I know it’s my issue, and I’m not handling it the best or well at all.
If you can look past yesterday, can we continue to talk and I will not bring up the date anymore or talk about my dating as it done lots of damage.
From: Pathetic Guy
Date: Tue, Jul 26, 2011 at 8:59 AM
Well first of all stop acting like this-I don’t find it too nice and let’s end the snipping sarcasm. You know what you did was wrong.
From the Peanut Gallery: What on earth did I do to this guy?? He acts like I took his virginity and never called the next day.
Email # 2, 13 minutes later – This was after reading my “Don’t contact me anymore email”
From: Pathetic Guy
Date: Tue, Jul 26, 2011 at 9:12 AM
My intent was not to hurt you or bring you down. It was to push you away as I can tend to put up a wall around me at times when I get upset and frustrated. It was to express my frustrations which were exacerbated by Sunday’s speedating. Believe it or not, you saying you don’t want me to contact you anymore hurts me more than anything else. I don’t know what to say, but as weird as it sounds, I do want to be friends and yes it was petty of me to bring up the amount of the bill. I’m just frustrated the way dating has been going for me. I do not want you feeling bad or guilty, it’s I’m taking dating very personally and am really hurt by what’s been going on lately. I know it’s my issue, and I’m not handling it the best or well at all.
If you can look past yesterday, can we continue to talk and I will not bring up the date anymore or talk about my dating as it done lots of damage.
You know when I was away, all I wanted was to talk to you. I really don’t want to throw away a friendship. I know I need to earn your respect back. I’ve not acted maturely and I apologize. Maybe part of me wanted you to send this email as f’d up as that sounds.
Please reconsider, I promise I will never bring up the date again. I want you as a friend and I hope one day you will want the same.
Email # 3 – 12 minutes after that
From: Pathetic Guy
Date: Tue, Jul 26, 2011 at 9:25 AM
I’m the one who is to apologize. I started it, I am very sorry, I let my frustrations get the better of me, I shouldn’t have emailed you yesterday since I was upset and I should have known, I was in the wrong. You have been nice to me and I was on the attack from the get go. I am sorry, it was not fair to you.
I don’t want you to apologize, you did nothing wrong. It’s me and I will admit that honestly.
Please reconsider, I promise I will never bring up the date again. I want you as a friend and I hope one day you will want the same.
Email # 3 – 12 minutes after that
From: Pathetic Guy
Date: Tue, Jul 26, 2011 at 9:25 AM
I’m the one who is to apologize. I started it, I am very sorry, I let my frustrations get the better of me, I shouldn’t have emailed you yesterday since I was upset and I should have known, I was in the wrong. You have been nice to me and I was on the attack from the get go. I am sorry, it was not fair to you.
I don’t want you to apologize, you did nothing wrong. It’s me and I will admit that honestly.
I think I needed a so called kick in the a** to wake me up, so to speak.
Again, I want you as a friend because you are a good person and you would be a great friend to have.
Please give me a 2nd chance. I promise, the date will never ever be brought up again. There is no point to bringing it up and it won’t do either of us any good. I’d rathr we talk about positive and fun things.
I hope you can look past my horrible emails yesterday and before and talk to me again. I don’t want lose someone I know would be an amazing friend to me.
Selfishly, I want you as a friend no matter what my emails were like yesterday.
Again, I want you as a friend because you are a good person and you would be a great friend to have.
Please give me a 2nd chance. I promise, the date will never ever be brought up again. There is no point to bringing it up and it won’t do either of us any good. I’d rathr we talk about positive and fun things.
I hope you can look past my horrible emails yesterday and before and talk to me again. I don’t want lose someone I know would be an amazing friend to me.
Selfishly, I want you as a friend no matter what my emails were like yesterday.
From the Peanut Gallery: I like that he wants me as a friend no matter what he said to me. That’s sweet of him, and yes, selfish. Also insane.
Email #4 – response to first email that he sent me while still being an asshole 30 minutes earlier
From: Pathetic Guy
Date: Tue, Jul 26, 2011 at 9:28 AM
Ignore this email
Email #5 - 12 minutes and 3 voicemails later.
From: Pathetic Guy
Date: Tue, Jul 26, 2011 at 9:40 AM
I left you a vm on your home and cell. I know you’re at work but I want to apologize so you can hear my apology is sincere. I feel horrible about the things I said. I want to move past that and I really mean that. I want to have you as a friend and that’s the most important thing to me. None of the other nonsense I pulled matters.
Email #6 - 2 hours later
From: Pathetic Guy
Date: Tue, Jul 26, 2011 at 12:14 PM
I don’t want to keep annoying you, but I am sorry about the way I acted. You did not deserve that.
My response… finally… many hours later…
From: Me
Sent: Tuesday, July 26, 2011 6:02 PM
Hi Pathetic Guy,
I really appreciate your apology. I truly believe that it was sincere and heartfelt and that means a lot to me. I have no doubt that I would be an amazing friend to you, but I have serious doubts about that friendship being returned to me, given your actions the last couple of weeks. I cannot continue a friendship with someone who would have ever thought that those actions and words were appropriate, even despite how misguided you eventually realized they were. I sincerely hope that you take this as a learning experience and are a better friend to the next person. I’m sure you will. I wish you a lot of luck with all of your travels and relationship pursuits.
Email #5 - 12 minutes and 3 voicemails later.
From: Pathetic Guy
Date: Tue, Jul 26, 2011 at 9:40 AM
I left you a vm on your home and cell. I know you’re at work but I want to apologize so you can hear my apology is sincere. I feel horrible about the things I said. I want to move past that and I really mean that. I want to have you as a friend and that’s the most important thing to me. None of the other nonsense I pulled matters.
Email #6 - 2 hours later
From: Pathetic Guy
Date: Tue, Jul 26, 2011 at 12:14 PM
I don’t want to keep annoying you, but I am sorry about the way I acted. You did not deserve that.
My response… finally… many hours later…
From: Me
Sent: Tuesday, July 26, 2011 6:02 PM
Hi Pathetic Guy,
I really appreciate your apology. I truly believe that it was sincere and heartfelt and that means a lot to me. I have no doubt that I would be an amazing friend to you, but I have serious doubts about that friendship being returned to me, given your actions the last couple of weeks. I cannot continue a friendship with someone who would have ever thought that those actions and words were appropriate, even despite how misguided you eventually realized they were. I sincerely hope that you take this as a learning experience and are a better friend to the next person. I’m sure you will. I wish you a lot of luck with all of your travels and relationship pursuits.
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